Still not doing it

Okay so it's now 11 o'clock and I've only done the real easy basic stuff for my drama work. I still have all the stuff that's actually important to do. I'm starting to care. But I'm only caring that I don't care about it. Which I don't. I need to do this work. It's worth 8 credits. But that just doesn't even mean anything. I don't care if it's worth 8 credits. Maybe it's because I know even if I finish it I'm still not going to pass or maybe it's because there's a small chance I might not be here next year anyway so it doesn't even matter but I really can't bring myself to care enough to do this work. Okay. I just need to stop blogging and write. But... It's just so stupid. Drama written work is awful. It shouldn't even be that important. But it is. Even though it's stupid.

Your fault

I don't know what's wrong with me :S I have a lot of drama homework to do (and some other stuff) that's due tomorrow. Actually, it was due today. But I'm not doing it. I'm sitting her blogging or I'm watching Friends or I'm napping. And it's not like I'm even panicking. I just don't care.

On a completely different note.

You know, it's all your fucking fault. If it wasn't for you, we'd still be together and I wouldn't be feeling this way now.

Goal

Julia and I have set a goal for this week. We're gonna try and be normal(ish) for the whole week. Let's see how it works out.

Erm...

I know what I am now. It may not be perfect, or even good. But I know what I am. But, what was I before? Before of all of this? Anybody? Anything? Was I anymore than some plain 2-dimensional boring piece of crap? If I was to lose what I have now, what would be left?

Sick

I'm so sick of this world
These people
These places
These colours
These things

I'm so sick of myself
My feelings
My thoughts
My actions
My beliefs

I'm so sick of everything
I'm even sick of Him

Bad things

When you came in, the air went out
And every shadow filled up with doubt
I don't know who you think you are
But before the night is through
I want to do bad things with you

I'm the kind to sit up in his room
Heart-sick and eyes filled up with blue
I don't know what you've done to me
But I know this much is true
I want to do bad things with you

Okay

When you came in, the air went out
And all those shadows there, filled up with doubt
I don't know who you think you are
But before the night is through
I want to do bad things with you
I want to do real bad things with you

I don't know what you've done to me
But I know this much is true
I want to do bad things with you
I want to do real bad things with you

I'm eating couscous

Lots of it too. And it's white. Or maybe yellow. And it's so good.

Nah, this blog isn't actually about couscous, I was just stalling for time.

I'm going to give it one more chance, girl. But after that, I'm fucking done.

Today

Best. Day. All. Term.

Got my internetz back

Jon keeps randomly stealing the internetz whenever I want to blog but I've gawwt it (said like Amanda from Survivor Micronesia when she pulls out the hidden immunity idol and gives a big fuck you to Alexis). But anyways, on with the blog.



True Blood finale: Awesome. Fucking awesome. I want more :( While watching it I was disappointed about how obv the killer-thing was however after mulling it over with my mum and with some help from the internetz we realized that it was already revealed to be Rene at the end of last episode but we were both dumb and didn't notice. OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! I can't believe they killed off Lafayette :( He was sooo awesome! Anyway, good show, looking forward to season two.

Star Ocean 4: Alright. Storyline is decent but a muddled. Gameplay roxxorz. Characters... Fail. Hard. Reimi is pretty cool. Bacchus and Faize are bland. Meracle is cool sometimes and shit other times. Edge and Lymle... Well... I don't even know. Lymle serves a good role and seems like a good character but her monotone voice, her "kay" thing, her dumbshitness in battle and her insistence on acting like a 4 year old when she's 15 drives me insane. And Edge may just be the worst lead character ever. Although he is pretty dece sometimes, he also has a stupid monotone voice so whenever he does serious scenes they just turn out lulzy. But mainly, he's just dumb and annoying. WHY can't JRPGs have good leads???

Everything else: Av. Something liek needs to happen soooon. I'm getting bored.

I'm so damn hot for 9:30

Guess what happens in 9 minutes? Season finale of True Blood. Aaaaalright! I'm so excited for it. I'll make sure to keep you updated but in the meantime, I think it is time to complain about other random things.

I had that stupid thing on Sunday night. You know, that stupid choking thing where I'm not actually choking? Yeah, that thing. Fuck, I hate that thing. And it always seems to happen with rice. Shit. It's so annoying. How am I ever gonna live by myself if I can't even eat RICE without fucking everything up?

Shit, my dad is a creep. Speaking of creeps, so is Stella/Stellar/Whatevs. She's fucking fucked up.

Anyway, True Blood is calling. So, bye!