How do you do an angry smiley?

Fuck Dave. Fuck him to hell.

So, with an extreme over-confidence in my overwhelmingly easy and relaxed family life, I left that battle of bourbon sitting out on my bedside table, just chilling. For a few days, Dave just looked at it and didn't do anything, he didn't seem to care. I come home today, and it's gone. Where did it go? Dave comes home, and I ask him. He tells me it's in the cupboard. I ask him why. He tells me he doesn't want me to have it. He then gives a speech about how I shouldn't be keeping alcohol here, let alone spirits.

Okay, I get it, he's concerned. But it pisses me off. Why do parents have to be concerned? Nothing wrong is going to happen. Can't they learn to trust their kids just a bit?

And yes, I know, it's pretty much my fault for being over-confident and assuming Dave would be as chill about everything as Mum was pretty stupid of me.

But the point is, that's MY bourbon. And I WANT it!

Life and Survivor

I think life is a game of Survivor. Everyone is just trying to last another day, and ultimately get a lot of money, or fame, or love.

I think Survivor can also be applied to scenarios in life.

Are you more popular than someone else in your circle of friends? Think of you as the final 2, and everyone else as the jurors. Who wins? I think it's interesting to sit down with some names and figure out who could beat who in a jury vote of their friends. Sometimes it's not as simple as A > B > C > D > E > F. Someone might be able to beat someone else, but that lose to someone that the person they could beat could win against. Get it?

I also think friendships, alliances and rivalries are interesting. Friendships are formed with people that you mutually enjoy being with. Common ground, or similar beings are not necessary for a friendship. All you need in a friend is for them to be funny, or nice, or smart. Alliances are different, though. Alliances are created between people with a lot of common ground (same gender, same age, same background, same interests) but not between similar people. On the other hand, rivalries are created between very similar being. They rival each other in competition for the same role in a tribe.

Tribes are like classes. You might not like everyone in your class, and you may not have anything in common with them. But you're still always with them, and you're still fighting for the same thing.

I think it's easier to see dominance in a relationship if you look at it through Survivor than through real life. Could A convince B to vote for C instead of voting for D who E wants them to vote for? If so, they are most likely dominant in that relationship.

That's all for now. I just thought it was interesting.

Blindingly Obvious

So life is full of distractions. God puts them all there to confuse and conceal what it is that you really want. Why does He do that? I dunno. Ask Him. Maybe just to make things more exciting, you know, people have random epiphanies and then blog about it like internet losers.

The hot Asian ex-girlfriend. Yeah, she's hot. But she was a distraction.

The ex-best friend who I thought I might have had secret feelings for. No secret feelings, just a distraction.

The I-Called-It-Fucking-Ages-Ago long time friend that I've been thinking about a lot lately. Another distraction.

The sexy mama who I was gonna tap but then she went all Christian. Nothing real there, just a distraction.

The foreign girl that nobody understands who has a nice body. I thought there might be something there, but it's just like a platonic love, I think. Distraction.

All of these were hiding what should have been blindingly obvious.

:(

So it's been what like 12 hours? She's been gone half a day and already I'm in pieces. Brother help me.