Random thoughts

I'm leaving soon, guys! This will probably be one of my lasts blog entries (I'll make sure to do a FINAL one filled with an appropriate amount of :( faces and the like)

I was thinking about my school life here in NZ and I thought of something that I thought was strange. I've struggled at school almost my life. Despite being a top tier student throughout primary I always had difficulty. This was probably due to the streaming system, which challenges the more apt students. However because of this, I was always one of the worst people in my classes, and I always felt inadequate and/or unintelligent. I also think this lead to me stopping to try at school, and is the reason I have done so poorly this year. Is streaming really such a good idea if it forces intelligent people to doubt themselves and unintelligent people to get an over the top sense of confidence?

I've noticed whenever gay men are brought up in a conversation, a storm of anal sex jokes come up. Is that really what society views gay men as? Anal beasts? Isn't homosexuality supposed to be about the love not the sex? And do all gay men even like anal? I dunno, maybe it's just because the people I hang out with are cringingly (is that a word?) immature and naive but it really struck me as strange. Is it that homophobia is actually people being afraid of gay love rather than being grossed out about gay sex? I guess so.