Meh

Because blogging wins, here I am again.

I was so hyped for 2009. I really thought that some hot shit was going to take place. But so far, I've been pretty damn disappointed. Nothing has really interested me and I'm getting sort of bored. Everything is sooo average; school is average, friendships are average, AVERAGE.
I think the average-ness is why I'm obsessing so much over "Madison" because I've got nothing better to do so I just spend my days going 'Omomomom'. I think the OMFG NEW CRUSH thing will pass soon and Madison will quickly join my been-there pile.
I guess average is better than bad. But at least when things are bad there's actually something to do. When things are average it's just so boring. So, really, it becomes a question over what's better; general badness or massive boredom?
Hopefully something will happen soon. But I can't really see it. Honestly, it looks like 2009 will probably be a pretty average year. That would be a massive let down. I was expecting a lot from this year, and so far it hasn't delivered.
But then, it's my own fault that nothing has happened. I think I block things. I complain about nothing happen but I never take opportunities when they arise. I get nervous and shy and hope that things will just happen. Things don't just happen. If I want something, I should try a little harder. If I want someone, I should try a little harder.