Secret Crush

Alright, let's think of a random name..... Okay, let's call them Madison. Okay, so on and off, I've liked Madison since... Well, since year 9, really. So that's like three years now. Well, I really like Madison again right now. Although we hardly ever talk and whenever we do I can't tell if they're being nice or if they're mocking me. Madison is WAY too good for me, and I could never get them, but... Well, it just sometimes seems like Madison likes me back, and other people say so too. Now it could just be that Madison is a massive tease, or maybe... I just, I just can't let myself think that they could because then I get my hopes up. And I know that that will only end badly. I don't know what to do. I really want something to happen. Like, really, really. But I don't know. I barely speak to them enough to get a chance to be friendly. And I'm unsure on my ability to subtly flirt. I've made a promise that Madison and I will be a couple by the end of the year but I don't know how I'm going to pull that off. Oh well, I guess the only wait to find out is to wait and see what happens. Okay, it's late and I have a field trip tomorrow so, good night!